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Rona Maynard's avatar

Some made lives making music. Others lost their lives, physically or metaphorically, in confrontations that never should have happened. The story of Charles, who didn’t want to take his kids’ money, will stay with me. Your writing is a powerful act of witnessing.

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Deirdre Lewis's avatar

I just needed to sit down and reread your comment a couple times. Thank you, Rona.

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Jeffrey Streeter's avatar

Not even that photo of the incomparable Billie Holiday prevents this from feeling such a sad catalogue of injustice and human misery. But her voice always gives us hope. As does yours, Deirdre.

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Deirdre Lewis's avatar

Thank you so much, Jeffrey. That means a lot.

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Erin Littlewood's avatar

“Murder of someone’s emotional well-being rarely makes it to court, even though that happens all the time.” This whole work, Deirdre. Wow. Thank you for writing this and just holding these stories the way you do.

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Deirdre Lewis's avatar

Thanks so much Erin. I have lots of these and I'm still trying to figure out the best way to frame them all.

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Erin Littlewood's avatar

I think how you managed to do it with these images was stunning, Deirdre.

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Deirdre Lewis's avatar

Thank you.

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Ana Bosch's avatar

Sometimes reading gets to be too hard. But we have to keep on, and not ignore. Or we would be part of the problem.

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NJ Fiction's avatar

This is one of your best!! Ugh I’m sad and reflective and sad again

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Deirdre Lewis's avatar

Me every day.

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Miguel Tejada-Flores's avatar

I wonder if the pieces that one starts writing, and then for some reason stops, but keeps coming back to, picking them up, adding a little, then putting them away, always keep improving or growing richer or somehow simmering creatively until they reach a state of being ready... and just being so right. Like the stories within this post, of Gary, and Brandon, and Jesus, and... the sense that there are so many moments in a person's life where, if something had gone slightly differently, or been one or two inches the other way, it might not have happened the way it did.

All of which is simply a long-winded way of saying thank you for both the stories you told, the people who peopled them, and the words you used, simple ones which touch on pain and hope and loss in ways that don't let a person who is reading them... forget.

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Deirdre Lewis's avatar

Thank you, Miguel. Your comments are always so generous and thoughtful. I’m grateful to have you as a reader!

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Mr. Troy Ford's avatar

You are exactly right to draw the connection between jazz artists/photography and these terrible moments of injustice and human pain, Deirdre. That is some stark imagery, and your witnessing captures perfectly the intersection of fear and violence, and our need to relieve the relentless horror with something beautiful. Snap.

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Deirdre Lewis's avatar

Thanks Troy.

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Susie Mawhinney's avatar

It seems we have a knack of powerfully transporting one another to places otherwise unknown.

Your choice of images combined with shadowy injustices... seriously Deirdre, this is amazing writing!

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Deirdre Lewis's avatar

Thanks Susie. those images were too beautiful not to find a way to use

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Sarah. Just Add Hyperfocus's avatar

Perfectly done 👌🏼.

The images, the text.

Both different ways to simply witness.

No judgement.

You are documenting this history, as stories that need to be told, with such compassionate insight from “the other side”.

Like the chiaroscuro of the brilliantly interspersed photos.

I think the way you present these is perfect.

I can imagine them - each with a page of it’s own, in a black and white hardcover book with glossy pages. I don’t know why, but that’s what I see when I read these.

Snaps, indeed!

Thankyou 👌🏼👍🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

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Deirdre Lewis's avatar

I love that Sarah! That’s a great idea. Thank you so much for reading.

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Will Boucher's avatar

the juxtaposition of the images and the stories is incredible. I particularly loved "maybe these are exactly the right people to watch over all this: artists and their work that contain so many things at once."

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Deirdre Lewis's avatar

Thanks Will. These photos really knocked me out!

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Richbee's avatar

Interspersed jazz photos break up the tension of story unfolding like a Dragnet show. “Just the facts m’am. “ reality creeps into the coffin creaks with cadavers unclothed. Stories retold. Only the case is closed. DOA. Good show with close up encounters.

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Deirdre Lewis's avatar

Richard I always love your haiku style/news scroll comments. Thank you

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